I had a moment last week that really awakened my spirit.
I realized that it was February! One-twelfth of the year has already passed, and, quite frankly, I do not remember much of it. There were definite highs and a few lows, but, more than anything, it was all a blur.
Continue reading “When you are living to simply survive…”
Do you ever get frustrated with your faith?
The expectations for an ideal Christian life are impossible to meet by our own strength. Forgive those that have hurt us? Bless those that have cursed us? Serve the unworthy? Heal the sick? Cast out demons? Sometimes, we pat ourselves on the back for just being able to get out of bed in one piece! But, to live purely, powerfully, and passionately for Christ on the day-to-day?
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From October to January, my family has back-to-back birthday celebrations. I spend half the year blowing balloons, filling goody bags, and buying cakes to declare to the world how thrilled I am about my children.
By Valentine’s Day, my husband and I are so sick of festivities that we mutually agreed not to make a big deal of it. The earlier birthdays are filled with so much excitement. Over time, I realized that the 1st, 10th, 13th, 16th, 18th, and 21st birthdays are all celebrations of what’s to come, an anticipation of a new era.
Continue reading “When you are anxious with where you are in life…”
One day, my eldest came home from school looking concerned. After I asked what was the matter, she replied, “Mommy, I wish I look like you.” Although she was genuinely perturbed, I thought it was so cute. She wanted to look like me! It was her desire to bear my resemblance — that genuinely touched my heart. It made me feel that she was truly my own daughter.
Continue reading “When you struggle with an Idol”
The need to change is, perhaps, one of the heavier burdens a Christian bears.
I have counseled so many Christians who have struggled with the need to change, even to the point where there’s a temptation to regret having had become a Christian in the first place. The need for change is so inconvenient, isn’t it?
Many Christians are overwhelmed by this struggle.
Where do you even begin? Perhaps your pride issue in the workplace? Your propensity to curse while driving? How about your addiction to lewd TV programs? Your hatred for certain people? Your hatred for yourself?
We can go deeper.
Your fear of being alone? Your incessant need to control? Your secret addictions? Your dark past?
Shall we go on?
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God can be such a mystery sometimes.
Sometimes, that mystery frustrated me.
Time to time, I told Him that I would so much rather just see Him face-to-face and have a clear, practical conversation with Him instead of praying. Wouldn’t that solve so many issues?
There were moments in my life when I had no energy to seek Him beyond the veil. And in those moments, my frustrations would arise. Like the time in my childhood, when a few girls in my circle would whisper and giggle about a secret that I was not supposed to know. It feels unfair and unnecessary–those times made me seethe.
Continue reading “When you can’t understand him…”