When Choosing Sacrifice…

When Choosing Sacrifice…
I don’t like pain.
I’m the type that would avoid any level of discomfort at all costs.
So, when I initially chose the life of ministry, I feared that the losses would be too heavy. Indeed, this included a fear that the humble circumstances would be too much to bear.
Nevertheless, I’ve been relatively spared up until now. Compared to the strife endured by the persecuted church around the world, I live a simple and easy life. We have a home. My children are receiving an excellent education. Both my husband and I have a steady paycheck, and we live the average, middle-class lifestyle in the suburbs of New Jersey. We get the occasional Starbucks drink.
Certainly, there is a cross to bear on a daily basis. Nothing comes easy in ministry. Yet, I haven’t quite fought to the literal point of bloodshed just yet. And to be honest, I did not want to. The idea of shaking things up was the last thing on my mind. Continue reading “When Choosing Sacrifice…”

What Christian Women Need…

What Christian Women Need…
Most women do not particularly enjoy talking about the female cause in the church. It almost feels petty. Women in ministry, in particular, understand that it is a touchy subject, and some try to avoid the topic altogether in fear of coming off as an angry feminist.
Society tells women that we can do anything. We can pursue degrees and choose careers. We can be politicians, CEOs, directors, creators. Unfortunately, this leaves many women confused within the church context, because what we can do for God feels so limited.
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When your soul needs rest…

When your soul needs rest…
That feeling when a full night of sleep just wasn’t enough…
That feeling when hours of television leaves you less motivated…
That feeling of being emotionally drained…
That feeling when your day is summed up by a to-do list, rather than by its memorable experiences…
Many of us know that feeling.
It means your soul is tired.
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Why I Chose Ministry

Why I Chose Ministry
A congregation member once asked to meet with me over coffee. She was cordial and seemed to be interested in the ministry that I was doing. I shared how I was originally on the pre-law track in college and thought that I would earn a law degree for Kingdom purposes. However, the Lord led me another way, which I gladly embraced.
She smiled through the conversation politely and at the end said, “You would have been a good lawyer,” and left it at that.
It was a packed statement. In the context of our conversation, she was basically saying that she was glad to see that I was content with my life, but she could not deny the lost “potential” of what my life could have looked like with a law degree, power, and money. Continue reading “Why I Chose Ministry”

The Loyalty of the Spirit (Indonesia Missions Recap)

The Loyalty of the Spirit (Indonesia Missions Recap)
Anyone who knows me also knows that the Lord has placed a call for orphan ministry in my life. It’s just an undeniable call that I have had for years, but I have not been able to activate it due to the life stage that I was in. How could I possibly reach the fatherless and motherless children of the world when my own four cried out to me at home? So, my trip to Indonesia was the culmination of many years in waiting.
It took 22 hours in the air, 9 hours of layovers, and 2 hours on the road to arrive at Nias, an island off of the western coast of Indonesia.
The heat? Intense. The terrain? Majestic. The food? Spicy.
One of the goals of the trip was to connect with the orphanage there. The moment our cars pulled in, a swarm of young, anticipating faces greeted us. Some were in their teens and some were as young as two-years-old.
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What Makes A Good Mother…

What Makes A Good Mother…
Every generation has an opinion of what it takes to be a good mother. But in this day and age, it is near impossible to feel like a mother is doing an adequate job. Yet, every mother wants to know that she isn’t failing, not for her sake but for her children’s.
The world will never be able to find a mother that can meet its ever-changing, never-ending list of standards.
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When your life feels unimportant…

When your life feels unimportant…
One afternoon, when my firstborn was just three-months-old, I had just put her down for a nap and quietly tiptoed to my desk to finally begin my work. I sat down, opened my laptop, but felt the need to at least pray before I began. So I spent about 15 minutes in prayer and meditation. It was peaceful and well worthwhile. As soon as I reopened my laptop, I heard a cry from the nursery. My heart sank. Her nap was over and so was my personal time.
There was indeed a period early on in my motherhood when I experienced a sense of loss in myself. I was no longer traveling as much. I was no longer taking on as many exciting projects. The majority of my day was extremely predictable and was spent at home with a baby. I went from preaching around the world to folding baby clothes on the day-to-day. All my friends and colleagues were moving forward towards the height of their careers, and the rising influence of social media was of no help during this time. This led to a season where my life felt less valuable to God and to the world.
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What I learned from my children…

What I learned from my children…
I have been a minister for almost thirteen years, and I have been a Christian for far longer than that. However, I have learned more about kingdom living in the past six years of being a mother than I have in that entire time altogether.
Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. Truly, I tell you, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it.” (Mark 10:14-15).
Something about what children know instinctively about the kingdom is somehow forgotten as we grow up and allow the world to teach us otherwise. The following are some of the gems I have picked up from my children over the last few years.  
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Things I have learned about people…

Things I have learned about people…
I wanted to continue with the train of thought started by a recent post “Things I’ve learned about God.”
Through my experiences in inner healing ministry, I’ve not only learned about God, but also about people. While people are all different, they generally fall into the same traps that prevent them from receiving freedom. The devil is not creative.
Jesus has the power to heal all who call upon His name. The Holy Spirit is available to anyone who desires to live strong, powerful lives that are free from lies and depression. However, the reality is that not all Christians are free from bondage, even though they have the capability to do so.
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Things I’ve Learned About God

Things I’ve Learned About God
A part of what I do in my home church is lead an inner-healing ministry, which leads wounded Christians into spiritual deliverance. It is a Spirit-led endeavor done with so much love and joy. Part of this experience is to witness a Christian, bogged down by lies and demonic strongholds, break free into joyous laughter. To see hope birthed from a place of bitterness and loss is such a privilege!
Surprisingly enough, not all believers embrace the chance for true freedom, although it was bought for them on the cross. When it comes to present day burdens and pains, some like to leave Jesus out of it and merely keep their hopes for what He will do for them when their life is no longer on earth.

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